Have you ever said “Why did God put this passion inside of me.” Why, why, why. I cannot do it, so why me Oh God.” I have said these words more than I can remember. I finally woke up and realized that the passion or passions I have inside of me comes from God. It is a calling, it is the lasting mark of God on my life and I am the only one who can walk it out and fulfill it to the depths that God has designed and planned.
One thing that I found was the more I attempted to run away from God’s calling in my life, the more I realized that I was running right into it. The Psalm 139: 1-12 makes it very plain that “God knows everything.” He knows my thoughts, he knows what I am going to say before I form my mouth to speak, and he knows my thoughts. Then, it seems like David sums up his summation in this section of verses by saying (my paraphrase), “No matter what I do, I cannot get away from you, I simply cannot escape from your Spirit. If I go to the highest mountains, you are there. If I go down to the deepest cave, you still know, and the darkness of the night won’t conceal me from you either, because it is a bright as the day to you.
Now some reading this might be saying that God is evasive and does not give you room to move or even have a life. Well . . . to put it plainly, my life and yours is in Him and while he knows the “what, how, why, and when’s” of our lives, God does not force himself on us, rather, I believe that he wants us to know that he is there and waiting for us to say – – – -Yes to him and what he desires for us.
What will be my response to God: To be honest as I write this, my response is Yes!!! to what He has predestined me to do. Easier said than done. Absolutely! But I am learning that as I surrender my control, you know – trying make things happen and doing what I want to do when I want to do it, God will make the calling he has placed on my life clear, and yes that includes the passions inside of me as well. My responsibility is to surrender, trust, rely, depend, and wait with expectancy for God to direct me. Just to clarify, when I said “wait” I was not implying to sit down and fold my hands while waiting for God’s directions. Nope! I will continue to seek Him in the Bible and in my 1-on-1 times with him.
So how about you? Have you ever said “Why did God put this passion inside of me.” Why, why, why. I cannot do it, so why me Oh God,” only to realize that you were and possibly still are attempting to run away and hide? If so, why? Take it from me, answering the “why” will determine your next move – whether you will surrender to God or continue to run from him with no avail.
Remember: God Never Gives You Something that Belongs to Someone Else!
I look forward to your thoughts,
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